As some of you know, I spent this past summer at Camp
Barakel as a summer camp counselor. It
was a fantastic experience that I enjoyed very much, but there was something
troubling that I discovered. Every week,
I had the opportunity to meet with each of my campers on what is known as a ‘one-on-one’. It’s a chance to talk with them about their
life, interests, and faith. Partway
through the summer, I began asking a question.
“If I were to ask you, and I didn’t actually know, ‘Who is Jesus?’ what
would you tell me?” I liked this
question because it’s very unassuming.
It doesn’t ask what the right answer is, it only asks what they know. What I heard, on the other hand, I did not
like. I expected that I would have un-churched
kids who didn’t really know what the Bible taught, but I think I only had two
of those the whole summer. The majority
of our conversations went something like this: “If I were to ask you, and I
didn’t actually know, ‘Who is Jesus?’ what would you tell me?” “Well, uhm.
I would say that he’s our savior.”
“What else, like, is he God?” “No,
well, maybe? I don’t really know.” That is just an example. The answers ranged from ‘I think so’ to ‘No,
he was just a good guy’ from kids that claimed to go to church at least EVERY WEEK.
The first couple conversations I had like this just made me
think, ‘Oh, okay, they just haven’t really put all the pieces together.’ But as the summer continued, and almost every
one-on-one ended up like that, it caused me to start looking for answers. I found some.
I started paying more attention to details in sermons and the way things
were said and how they would come across to someone who didn’t know better.
“God loved us so much that He sent His son to be the sacrifice
for our sins.” That’s the gospel
right? There’s nothing wrong with that
statement. But there is. God
loved us. So He sent Jesus. If you don’t expand
it and talk about it, it comes across as this God who’s up in Heaven, and He
loves us, but He sends someone else to pay for our sins. He doesn’t get His hands dirty. What kind of love is that? And does Jesus love us? Was his sacrifice voluntary, or did he just
do it begrudgingly because God told him to, like a child does his earthy
father? This may seem a little extreme,
but it’s what I’ve seen. It’s not a line
of thought that isn’t proven. I’ve heard
the evidence.
Where does this line of thinking lead? If Jesus doesn’t love me, he just died
because he had to, then the cross loses its potency. It’s not an incredible sacrifice that leads
us to love Him more, it’s legalistic. Theologically,
if Jesus wasn’t God, then his death wouldn’t have been effective. He had to be both God and Man.
That is the Great Disconnect. We teach that God loves us. We teach that Jesus died. But do we cross the gap to make the
connection?
*is teary*
ReplyDelete*wants to go crawl in a corner and cry healing tears*
Oh my goodness, Evetlin....
This is something that I struggled with for years and years and years. Most of my childhood.
I just blogged about it over here:
http://elodenorjeles.blogspot.com/2013/08/self-injury-worldview.html
Thank you so, so much for talking about this on your blog...it is SO important.
*hugs tight*